Home

  Home. There's nothing quite like it. Nothing quite like looking out your window and seeing the reeds of the pond outside, with mountains and trees behind them. Nothing quite like walking down your quiet street, or knowing the faces of people you see as you speed downtown. Nothing quite like feeling the wind from the open taxi window, the potholes that never end, or listening to the music that mixes together then fades away as you move on.
  Random shadows, well known faces...both dance through your mind and memory with every step you take. Voices reach your ears as you open the gate. It's like opening the top to a treasure chest. Out spring old joys, old sorrows, old pleasures, and old pains. And they're thoroughly loved.

  It's beauty.

  It's pure pleasure.

  You walk through the open market. Smells all mix together. New shoes, fish, fresh fruit, rotten fruit, exhaust from taxis, and the beautiful smell of hot fresh bread...they all mix together in one huge aroma known as downtown. Trash and dirt mean nothing; mud is a much loved sight. The sound of rain on your window as you lie in bed at night, the pounding of a hammer in the back yard, the earthy smell that fills your lungs every time you leave your house...it's familiar.

  It's lovely.

  There's nothing quite like it.

Sleepless Night...

Oh, sleepless night,

Where do you go?

Remembering the joys

Remembering the sorrow

Does it help at all?

Will I ever know?

I took a chance

I took a risk

You told me of the dance,

Reminded me of beauty.

What a sad romance

To remember so late.

These thoughts, and dreams,

These memories

Endless as the night is long,

Block out the forest, not the trees

A mystery locked up...

Will I find the keys? 

Friends...

Friends...

They make you laugh

They make you cry

Friends...

They bring you joy

They break your heart

Friends...

The love goes deep

Enough to die

Friends...

Is letting go

The hardest part?

Fly...

  So, I know I've heard this song before, but I forgot about it and just found it again. I believe what it says is true and that's why I named my blog 'Fly' (not because of this song, and not after the bug!). I believe God wants us to fly with Him, to step off the edge, see nothing but Him, pay attention to no one but Him, and trust that He'll take us where He wants us to go, and do great things through and for Him. And, of course, there will be bumpy hard parts too. So, I don't want to babble on too much, but I've pasted some of the lyrics up, just the ones that really stand out to me (you can look up the rest if you want to). Hope you enjoy! :)

I close my eyes

Everything disappears but Your smile

I raise my hands

On a cliff I stand

Arms open wide

You’re the Father, I’m the child

You whisper to me,

“Step off the edge

Leave it all behind, leave it all behind

Cut loose, cut loose the ties

Let go, let go!”

For way too long I’ve settled for these lies

When so much more has been waiting on the other side

I think it’s time we cross this river so wide

Leave these shores, step off the edge

Leave it all behind, leave it all behind

Cut loose, cut loose the ties

Let go, let go!

Fly! Fly! You can fly!

Leave the ground, leave the ground

Go and fly!

This is what you, you were meant to fly!

Song by Jonathan David Helser

I miss you...

I reach out to touch the clouds

They disappear, fade away

Oh, those sights are so clear -

And I miss you...

All these voices in my mind

All these faces written in my heart

Old friends, new friends

All of them dear friends

I close my eyes, my soul returns

It's a beautiful day

We walk slow, then laugh loud -

And I miss you...

Sharpened and Forged...

Burned, scorched, fried
in the flames meant to mold me.
I stuck out a hand,
stepped off to the side,
let down my shield,
and down I was thrown!
The pain, the regret
The sluggish will
to get back up,
to fight again...
The quiet voice
whispering to stay,
to sleep, to forget and ignore
the knowledge and wisdom,
that I'd heard before.
Yet desperate, depressed,
stubborn and slow to obey
your love still props me up,
still strengthens and straightens
my shield so I can fight,
till I can sit.
And day by day, the battle's on!
Hope's not lost yet, Faith still believes
that I will rise again.
No longer burned, or scorched, or fried
by flame's unceasing heat,
but for every tear shed, ever cried
I will be
more sharpened and forged by fire!

Walking

Running from memory
Running from history
Running from all I know
Running, I can't go slow

Faces inside my head
Heart weighed down
Like a pound of lead
Faith has brought me to a crossroad
Have to decide
To lay down the load

Fear and feeling
Come in, overwhelming
A tearing pain
That has no gain



Walking through memory
Walking through history
Walking through all I know
Walking, I've gotta go slow

Walking with you by my side
Walking with you, I won't hide

I know it won't be a ball
But it's still a dance
I give you my all
Faith has led to a crossroad
Have to decide
To lay down the load

Fear and feeling
Come in, overwhelming
A tearing pain
That has no gain

I give them to you
You give me strength that's new
Walking is a choice

So I shout and lift my voice